Just Frustrated and Ranting.

So frustrated with work and exercising already. We are only 26 days into the new year. I'm so frustrated with trying to exercise. I haven't been in a week. Partially, because I spent the weekend out of town and did walk a lot while I was gone, but back tot he gym hasn't happened. I really love Zumba, but the classes are just too late at night for me. I can't come home get dinner ready and leave every single night.

There in comes the whole work frustration. I could work 24/7 some days and still not get everything done. I have to figure out how to delegate more stuff to a certain person that works for me and for the work to be right, good, etc... without catching attitude from her. I'm not sure how to do it. I just have to suck it up and make it happen. I'm behind on so many things and I can't keep this up. I am better than this at my job and I've been slacking and haven't just gotten in there and made my space, work habits, etc... better than what they already are. I had promised myself that was going to happen after the first of the year. Just need to dive in.

I think that if I could get to the gym a little more during the week and walk a little more as well I might feel better. Speaking of walking. I should get off of my ass right now and get on my clothes and get the dog and head out the door. May be I will do that as soon as I send this email that I need/want to get sent to my boss.

I need to get a better schedule going for everything that I do. I need to have more regular meetings with both of my bosses. I need to sit with them and force myself to have reports to give them each week for them to look at and mull over. Maybe that will by my goal for this month is to get these things set up and then set up a meeting with them that they can't get out of.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Exercise would help me about now. I'll get up in the morning and walk. Right now I need to do a little work and get my 5 year old something to eat. Yes, she is up and has been for an hour now. She is so hungry!!

Need to get this stress out somehow other than eating. That is my crutch.

Next time.

Kim

Charleston

Charleston - I'm here!! I am so excited to be in this amazing city for the weekend with my very best friend Jennifer. We are staying at the Mills House - Awesome! We have a gorgeous room only blocks from all the action here in Charleston. What a great weekend get-away with one of the best people that I know. In the room about to do a little work while waiting on Jennifer to make it into town.

I have eaten terrible already today, but I guess that all the walking that I will do this weekend will offset that a little bit. Can't wait to read my new book on my Kindle during this relaxing weekend as well. I bought Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy. My plan is to read this book and then go see the movie. I'm not a big reader, but I've heard that the book was good and I think that the movie looks good as well. Most people I know have read the book when they go to the movie. I'm going to become one of those people.

Have fun on this beautiful Friday in SC.

Kim

Back to the YMCA

Yesterday, we went as a family to the Y. I went to Zumba. I really do enjoy going to this class. It is what you make it, very high energy or even just a fun lower impact aerobics class. I'm feeling it a little bit today, I didn't jump into the first class back and go totally high impact. I'm going to ease my way back in.

Rich played basketball for an hour or so and got set up on the new Active Trax stuff. I really don't like it as much as I did the FitLinxx that they used to have. Oh, well. I don't have to like it, just use it!

So, Rich is doing a biggest loser contest at work. They have 4 weeks to lose the most percentage of weight. I believe that everyone put $10.00 into the pot and whoever loses the most wins the money. Not a bad incentive!

Today I'm headed back to the Y so that Sarah can go to the kids Zumba class and I can go to kickboxing. I've never done kickboxing before, but I'm willing to try just about anything right now to get this weight off of me. I'm at 183 today and I expect by this time next month I will be at 173. I just need to feel good in my own skin and I haven't felt like probably most of my adult life.

So, now that I'm 40 with little kids, I think that I really need to get me butt in gear and make it shrink and for me to be a healthier person so that I can keep up with my very active 5 and 2 year old little ones.

Breakfast was my normal fried egg sandwich with enough butter in the non stick pan that the egg barely didn't stick. The mushrooms, peppers and onions tasted great and the parmesan cheese was just enough to taste it, but it didn't add a lot of calories. Black coffee - on the first cup, but there will be atleast one more to go before all I drink the rest of the day is water.

I hear a 2 year old calling my name. I guess I need to post and go get these kids up.

Have a great day! Remember it is only food and although it tastes really good you only need enough of it to make your body move and function.

Til next time,

Kim

2012 - A New Beginning??

Well, as so many other people are probably writing the same exact thing today it kind of is a new beginning. It is a new year. I'm starting off the year only 60 pounds overweight this time. As I did lose a whopping 5 pounds this year.


I'm going to work hard to get all my various spaces cleaned up and cleaned out. We have so much stuff that we don't need and don't use in this house. It just takes up precious space that could be completely empty.


I'm just going to try to be a better person. I don't think that I only think of myself, but I might think about my kids too much and not the other people that are important in my life as well.


I am going to get back to exercising each day, if only to take this crazy giant puppy out for a walk. We wanted a new dog, got one and boy is he more difficult than the last dog. Not because he isn't great, but because we now have little kids that take up a lot of time and he isn't getting the training and attention that he needs.


So, I'm making dinner right now. Yes, it is noon and I pretty much have dinner ready other than making a salad to go along with it. Salad every night will help to not eat as much of the yummy bad stuff. I'm making my version of the sour cream enchiladas from Pinterest.com. I ended up not having any chicken broth, but did have a can of cream of chicken soup. So, my sauce is a little different. I'm also mixing cheddar and pepper jack cheese since I have these 2 great little kids that like spicy things, but not as spicy as mommy and daddy. I hope that my family likes these. I love them and remember my mom making these a lot growing up. YUM!!!


That is all for now. I might write again later. As one thing I'm committing to this year is to blog more about what is going on. I have no followers, but is just fine. They say if you make things public that it makes you more accountable for what you are doing. So, I'm putting it in this blog. It is out there for anyone that wants to read it, not that my life and what I'm doing is important to anyone but me.


I'll be talking to myself again later today, or tomorrow!


Kim

February 15, 2011

Well, I have been at this eating better and exercising thing for over a month now. I have actually lost 4 pounds since starting, but I haven't been exercising enough and I have to get back on track with that if I'm actually going to meet my goal of 65 pounds by my 40th birthday on August 21st. Crazy, but I've got to do this and get healthy!!!

It is just not easy with 2 kids making the time to hit the gym and do any exercising other than at 5:30 in the morning walking and I'm having a very hard time getting up that early and actually getting out there. I just want to sleep until 7:00 (at least) every day of the week! Oh well, if I want this I have to get my butt up and get moving at least once every single day of the week - No exceptions!!

AHHHH!!!!

Well, I walked today. It was great! Now I just have to do this every day of the week and stop eating so much so that I will lose all this extra weight!

I was actually ready to make a healthy dinner tonight, after stopping at the store on the way home, until my 2 month old baby was having a really bad night and ended up in the emergency room. He is just fine. We probably jumped the gun a little bit and took him, when we really needed to give him some Tylenol and comfort him after a reaction to his vaccines today.

I just hate that they give these little ones so many vaccines at once I know that they are for his own good, it is just hard. His little leg was swollen and he was just screaming at my moms. I felt for mom as well. She just wasn't able to console him. He seems to be doing well now. We keep checking on him every 20 minutes or so and he is sleeping soundly.

Crazy night!

All I want to do is eat!

All I want to do is eat today. I am just so bored that I keep going to the kitchen to get something more to eat. It is crazy! I have even eaten 2 pieces of caramel cake and I really don't like caramel cake all that much, it is just something else to eat!

I have to get it back together beginning in the morning. I feel terrible and have heart burn right now from all the food today. Wow, amazing how bad things can go in just a week. This weight has to come off. The exercise has to begin and the eating has to end!!!